Psalm 69 has so much to teach me on prayer.
Save me, O God!
The water is up to my neck;
I am sinking in deep mud,
and there is no solid ground;
I am out in deep water,
and the waves are about to drown me.
I am worn out from calling for help,
and my throat is aching.
I have strained my eyes,
looking for your help.
Those who hate me for no reason
are more numerous than the hairs of my head.
My enemies tell lies against me;
they are strong and want to kill me.
They made me give back things I did not steal.
My sins, O God, are not hidden from you;
you know how foolish I have been. – Psalm 69:1-5 GNT
What an image of drowning – I am there with him. The imminence of death is there if I want it to be and I will only want it to be if I do not believe that God has heard my prayer. What is the cause of drowning – those who hate, the numbers of those who hate – and the lack of reason in doing so. Even so, while they may be out of line, I know my sins are real and they lay before God.
Don’t let me bring shame on those who trust in you,
Sovereign Lord Almighty!
Don’t let me bring disgrace to those who worship you,
O God of Israel!
It is for your sake that I have been insulted
and that I am covered with shame.
I am like a stranger to my relatives,
like a foreigner to my family.
My devotion to your Temple burns in me like a fire;
the insults which are hurled at you fall on me.
I humble myself by fasting,
and people insult me;
I dress myself in clothes of mourning,
and they laugh at me.
They talk about me in the streets,
and drunkards make up songs about me. – Psalm 69:6-12 GNT
But as for me, I will pray to you, Lord;
answer me, God, at a time you choose.
Answer me because of your great love,
because you keep your promise to save.
Save me from sinking in the mud;
keep me safe from my enemies,
safe from the deep water.
Don’t let the flood come over me;
don’t let me drown in the depths
or sink into the grave.
Answer me, Lord, in the goodness of your constant love;
in your great compassion turn to me!
Don’t hide yourself from your servant;
I am in great trouble—answer me now!
Come to me and save me;
rescue me from my enemies. – Psalm 69:13-18 GNT
I do the only thing left to do – I ask God to rescue me. I know the character of God is one where He keeps His promises and He has an amazing love for me. His compassion is turned towards me as He looks at me. It is a passionate prayer and if you noticed, the prayer is growing in confidence the longer it progresses – God will hear and answer because of who He is.
You know how I am insulted,
how I am disgraced and dishonored;
you see all my enemies.
Insults have broken my heart,
and I am in despair.
I had hoped for sympathy, but there was none;
for comfort, but I found none.
When I was hungry, they gave me poison;
when I was thirsty, they offered me vinegar.
May their banquets cause their ruin;
may their sacred feasts cause their downfall.
Strike them with blindness!
Make their backs always weak!
Pour out your anger on them;
let your indignation overtake them.
May their camps be left deserted;
may no one be left alive in their tents.
They persecute those whom you have punished;
they talk about the sufferings of those you have wounded.
Keep a record of all their sins;
don’t let them have any part in your salvation.
May their names be erased from the book of the living;
may they not be included in the list of your people. – Psalm 69:19-28 GNT
Notice how easy it is take it all back again – making it personal. I stop thinking about God and start to think about people again – and they offer me nothing, leaving me alone and friendless. Then comes the prayer of imprecation. They somehow creep into my life, if not verbally, definitely in my dreams. I pray that I may not be here long and come back to being the person God has called me to be for the time is short and the hour has come for me to rise up and continue to serve.
The end of all things is near. You must be self-controlled and alert, to be able to pray. – 1 Peter 4:7 GNT
If the end of all things is near – why am I hanging on to what will not last? I long for the day of His returning.
“Do not look so sad. We shall meet soon again.”
“Please, Aslan,” said Lucy, “what do you call soon?”
“I call all times soon,” said Aslan; and instantly he was vanished away.
—C. S. LEWIS, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
It brings me to a place of urgency and action. A place where I am sensible and self-controlled, level headed, not impulsive or easily swayed by emotion. I will not go off the deep end. I shall have clarity of mind and may my character and service make a difference. Most of all, I need to be able to pray. For some, at different places of their journey, prayer can be difficult. Yet when I am alert, and in the midst of suffering and hostility as Psalm 69 presented, a sound and alert prayer life is most important.
But after we have learned by faith to know that whatever is necessary for us or defective in us is supplied in God and in our Lord Jesus Christ, in whom it hath pleased the Father that all fulness should dwell, that we may thence draw as from an inexhaustible fountain, it remains for us to seek and in prayer implore of him what we have learned to be in him. – John Calvin